scribblings

People close to me might know that I am mad about black colour. Anything that I would choose for myself, I would prefer black and always choose some shade of black or its allied colours.

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I am going to buy a cap. I called my mom and said I am going to buy a cap. She wants me to buy some light coloured one. She knows I cant resist a black. Yet, she keeps telling. I walk into Gurunath. I look for possibly good looking and fitting caps. Something black keeps coming back to my hand. I cant help it. I am not impressed with anything else. I buy a black cap. I call mom again and say, I bought a Black Cap. She says she knew that I cant buy anything else. Moms know their kid very well.

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I lost my black cap. The most favourite of my black caps. I dont remember where I left it. I m very desparately trying to recollect as to where I could have missed it. Where did I wear it to, where did I leave it, Who could have taken it, Who could have know its whereabouts. Its not even a few months since I got it. I am pained. I am confused. I am depressed. I am mad. Where is it?

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The older Black Cap has been hence put to much more use. I have been using the older black cap for a few weeks now. And I dont know where i left this one too. I went back to my room and checked, I couldnt find it. I go out to T Nagar for some work and keep looking for shop which sells caps. I dont find a cap vendor. I come back without any black caps. I open the door, latch it behind me and strip. I put them clothes into the wash bucket and there it is, between the wall and the bucket, the old black cap. Yes i have a black cap.

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I am walking into the hostel and I notice that the security has a black cap in his hand. My heart races. Could it be my new black cap that has been missing since a few weeks. I fill water into my bottle from the dispenser and climb the staircase. However my attention to that Black cap has not yet ceased. I keep seeing it to confirm if it is mine. I have reached my floor. I still see his hand and I now know that what he has in his hand is my Black cap indeed.

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My heart is racing. He has my Black Cap. My Favourite Black Cap. I want to go tell him its mine, and snatch it from his hand. I want my cap back. I take my empty water jug and go down again to fill it. He seems to have kept my Black Cap somewhere inside one of his draws. I should find it out and take it from him. I should tell him its mine and ask for it. I fill my jug and start talking a friend passing by. My mind is still trying to find out where he has kept it. When do i ask him to give me back my cap?

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I start climbing the stairs yet again with this friend telling something, and I still look at the security and there he takes my cap out of one of his drawers. And I keep looking at it. I prolong the conversation as we reach my floor. I keep talking to this friend while my mind and eye are still watching the security and his hand which has my black cap. He puts it back below the table. I keep watching I should go and tell him its mine and talk possession of my Black Cap.

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The friend has left. I start walking to my room. I turn back and peep downstairs. He is not at his seat. Where has he gone? I look up and look to the other side of the corridor. He is there at the other entrance and he is not looking here. I keep the jug on the staircase and take a dash downstairs. Without his noticing, i crawl up the table and put my hand to frantically fetch my cap and i run back to my floor. I got back my Black Cap but my heart is beating faster. He is still at the other end of the corridor. I come to my room and put my Black Cap for a much needed wash.

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I am sitting in my room under my laptop. My door is open and the bucket with My black Cap in it is right there near the entrance. I hear some noise from the next room. I know that people have kept stuff and would keep moving things in and out of that room. And there he is, the security at my door for a moment. I ask him what he wants and he says he came with some students who wanted to keep/take stuff from the adjacent room and goes away. I realise that the black cap is visible. Did he see it? Did he see my black cap in my bucket???